Updated: Feb 25, 2020
People keep asking why the drastic change…why I cut my hair so short…The answer is both simple and complicated.
The simple answer is I have always wondered what I would look like with super short hair. So why not find out now?
The complicated answer is it’s my way of symbolically letting go of something that has been weighing heavy on my heart. And even now I don’t know for sure what this “something” is.
Over the last month, I have been in a little funk. I don’t know what started it but I know I had fallen out of alignment. When certain things didn’t go my way, I did not respond in ways that came from my higher self like I had before. I fell into this black hole of worthlessness and purposelessness, where my ego consumed me.
I have been in this place before. Last time I felt this way, about 4-5 years ago, I thought if life was so meaningless, why even live. This time, I am so grateful I have the tools and a community to guide and support me. I have been journalling, meditating and affirming positive thoughts everyday. Best of all, before I started YEM Home, I knew this would be the community I could count on during difficult times and it turned out to be exactly that (and more).
So slowly, over the past month, I have been making my way back. I made a firm decision that even though it was important to let myself feel my feelings, it was time to go home to my true self and let go of whatever negative beliefs that were holding me back. So I cut my hair to remind myself of the decision to “let go” and make it clear to my subconscious that I am willing to do whatever it takes to get there.
This morning, these words just magically came to me, so I wrote them down in my journal: “My life on earth is a vacation. My time here is short and my only job is to enjoy it. It is not a game where I need to win or earn points. I am not here to prove anything or to leave behind a legend. But I know that as I live my life with joy and love, good things come out of it.”